That's it, I Quit

tough to say if your tears were fake enough
irregardless, we're still breaking up
like cell phone signals underground
...can you hear me now?

Never Again like Kelly Clarkson said:
they may believe you but I never
will.
still footing the bill,
literally and emotionally
hopefully the thrill was worth it totally.

Yes, I was burned but I call it a lesson learned.
Everything happens for a reason.
Seasons change.
Insert more cliches that all mean the same.
We talking bout practice???
Not the game?!?
Such a crying shame
pointless to assign blame
or finger point (unless it's the middle like Monie:)

What's been done can't be undone
committed flagrant fouls playing one on one
...on one who was flagrantly committed too
(but to you)
undetected for years like Donaghy.

a drama scene straight outta
the Shakespearian era
A true comedy of errors
ensure that ties are properly severed


Yes, I was burned but I call it a lesson learned.
denial is a river in Egypt

sincerely yours,
David Stern

Another Gas Face Victim

Some weeks ago, I posted a blog (Apparently, Fear is a Factor...) where among other occurrences, I noted that my favorite local gas station recently began charging a higher price for credit card purchases of petrol. If I were working PR for the gas station, I'd make the claim: "We Offer Discounts on Cash Purchases!!" But since I don't, I can't help but feel like I'm getting the short-end of the pump.

Recently, I've increasingly found gas stations whacking their credit card customers but not yet often enough to consider it quite commonplace. Because it hasn't been consistent among local gas stations, the obvious reasons for the bump in price didn't jump right out at me. However, when I recently read an article about gas stations that are beginning to accept cash-only, I became curious enough to do a little online research. Clarity ensued...

Most credit card companies apparently charge about 2% as transaction fees to the gas station. Since I was paying about 8 - 10 cents extra to use my credit card, the gas station had basically made the decision to pass the transaction fees onto me (though I believe they are still making a profit on the fee as well as the gas...).

While this explains the difference in price between cash and credit, it does not explain why this gas station, even with the inflated credit card price, still offers a lower price than basically every other gas station I could find anywhere near my house. But since this works out in my favor, I won't be losing any sleep trying to figure it out.

Today, I will appropriately leave you this classic video from 3rd Bass - The Gas Face.

"Perkin his brim to the rim of my cup
Don't tempt me, you're empty, so fill'er up!
Is I'm talkin coffee or cocoa, is you loco?
Cash or credit for unleaded at Sunoco..."

Better in Time Video - Leona Lewis

Better in Time Video on youtube

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going, coming, thought I heard a knock
Who's there? No one. Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
You didn't notice, you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning… to love again
All I know, I'ma be okay

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh yeah
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
(It'll all get better in time)

How could I turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me?
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings?

If I'm dreaming (don't wanna let) hurt my feelings
but that's the path, I believe in
And I know that, time will heal it
You didn't notice, boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning… to love again
All I know is, I'ma be okay

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh yeah
(It'll all get better in time)
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
(It'll all get better in time)

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is, I'll be fine without you
Yes, I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh
(It'll all get better in time)
And even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to, yes i do
(It'll all get better in time)

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
(It'll all get better in time)
And even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
(It'll all get better in time)


I will never ceased to be amazed at how often I can find a song to perfectly capture an emotion that I'm feeling at a particular moment in time...
stay tuned...there's more where this came from

ME by Erykah Badu

Everything around you see
The Ankhs, the wraps, the plus degrees
And yes even the mysteries
It's all me
Sometimes it hard to move you see
When you growing publicly
But if I have to chose between
I chose me

Had 2 babies different dudes
And for them both my love was true
This is my last interview (ooh)
Hey there's me (ooh)
This year I turned 36
Damn it seems it came so quick
My ass and legs have gotten thick yeah
It's all me

I use to pray to God above
But now I'm filled with so much love
But even if the world can't see
It's still me
Will I escape this vanity?
Or will I keep on smoking trees?
But I'll just let it go
and be, be, be Me

Ah, leave it alone babe
Well well well
Ah oh, leave it alone babe
Just being me
Ah, leave it alone babe
Well well well
Ah oh, leave it alone babe
Just being me

Sometimes I don't know what to say
So many leaders to obey
But I was born on savior's day, yes
So I chose me
And in this world of greed and hate
They may try to erase my face
But millions spring up in my place (ooh)
Believe in me

As sure is all and all is one
We all should grow before it's done
So I salute you Farrakhan, yes
Cuz you are me
Before I end this crazy dream
Before I take one for the team
Yo ass done matched the gasoline, yes
That's Collene

Youtube clip

This track is off of Erykah's most recent endeavor, New Amerykah: Part One (4th World War) (released Feb. 26, 2008). Though I haven't given this album as much play as I'd liked to, I can definitely vouch for it. Recently, this track in particular spoke to me. It's honesty and vulnerability is a destination I've sought out on many occasion is 2008. The part of the song between 4:24 and 5:37 is a little baffling but sounds like a shout out laced with family history to me (apologies to the youtube clip viewers because the clip I selected has the best accompanying visuals but cuts off a solid ten seconds of the song... Sometimes you have to pick your poison). Subsequent listens generate a greater sense of clarity and understanding but isn't that a sign of great art?!?

If you haven't heard the album and would like to take a gander, you can find it here on my site: tuttafucco's mP3 melange. Just holla if you have ?'s.

Thank You Erykah!! I hope to see you there one day.

Sincerely,

Willie Tuttafucco,
aspiring transparent being
growing one blog and one day at a time

Chances Are...

My apologies to those who may have assumed by the title that this blog would be all about the 1989 flick starring Robert Downey Jr. and Cybill Shepherd (which I have not yet seen BTW). Aside from the brief mention in the opening two sentences, this blog has nothing to do with that movie...

Inspiration for my blog comes in many shapes, sizes, and colors. I really never know when it's going to strike. Sometimes, it's too frequently, and I unfortunately don't always have the time to share with you the many thoughts, ideas, and revelations I come across.

Today, I have the time...or perhaps I'm just making it...(Can you really make time? If so, can someone send me the recipe?)

Today I'm sharing some advice that you may find helpful, should you ever find yourself in a situation where it actually can be applied...

If, in the middle of a discussion, you feel the need to explicitly state, "I'm agreeing with you...", Chances Are you're probably disagreeing with them. Another clue that you can use is when you hear yourself frequently interjecting with the conjunction but...

Point being, there's nothing wrong with disagreeing with someone. Just don't patronize them by pretending you're in agreement, because unless you simply like hearing yourself talk, it doesn't take 10 minutes to explain how you're agreeing with them...

And to be fair, I can take the constructive crit as well as I can dish it. We are imperfect beings (myself included) living in an imperfect world.

Keep it Real...Just Do It...Pop the Trunk!!